Back-up Plans - Katelyn Adams
I love to have a plan. Whether it be grocery shopping, checking the weather, or outlining my weekend social schedule, I love to know what I’m doing and to be prepared for any and all situations.
I committed to the fellowship about halfway through my senior year, anxious to have a job after graduation (especially one that provided housing, food, and roommates). But as August 17th drew closer, I was filled with dread. I didn’t know anyone or anything about Sky Ranch. I had convinced myself that I had peaked in college, that nothing good was to come in my future, and that the Lord didn’t truly care about me.
Before ever arriving at camp, I started making outlandish backup plans of things I could do if I quit the fellowship, trying to hold on to some semblance of control over my future. I could do the Disney College Program or go on the reality show Survivor or substitute teach. A few days before I arrived at the Ranch, I was convicted of my lack of trust in the Lord and hesitancy to go all in. Thank the Lord for His mercy, grace, and patience! Upon meeting my fellow fellows, I was in awe of their joy and kindness and ultimate desire to know the Lord and become more like Christ. I am so thankful to live and work here, surrounded by people that remind me to turn to scripture for truth.
After sharing some of my fears with my manager, he encouraged me with this verse:
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7
This year has been a year of humbling. From sweeping floors to lifeguarding the Party Pool to chopping wood, I’m doing things I never imagined I would and truly finding joy in unglamorous jobs. I can rest in the FACT that the Lord cares for me, and what is best for me is to die to myself and my sin and seek to honor Christ in all that I do.
I don’t need a plan or even a backup plan. All I need is Christ.